Cold and dark…

A lot of people are having a winter depression already even though the fall just started… I have days that I would just stay at home and will not put my nose outside the door. Last week for the first time I have started the heating … not much … 2 degrees up. I could feel the warmth filling the room slowly … lekker. Today also, just stay at home a watch TV and sleep after the busy weekend…but Fuyo need to go to the course so … preparing the snacks, the toy, and the doggy bags … an leaving in the cold and dark evening…

District 9

I have not decided yet if I did or did not like this movie. I watched the film to the end because this is what I do almost all the time, watch to the end. I wanted to see how the situation develops and how it will end.

The film was shot as a documentary, different angle, different comers, refreshing but the story… not for people who does not like science-fiction. Yes, the movie it is about the “green men” or “aliens” that has been rescued from the spaceship in South Africa and placed in the district 9.

The movie shows the few sides of the people and what are they capable to do when left without choice. Brutality, hate, fear, love and desperation… at the end of the movie I though “well, how many districts 9 we have already”

Hoge Veluwe loop -10K

Mid October I have not expected the weather to be good but at least no rain or small drizzle. What we got on the way and in the Hoge Veluwe Park when the run took place, was wall of rain (A. and F went with me). Taught by the experience of last year and my previous 10K run, I left on time (thanks to A.) and took enough food and drink.
It was raining when we left home, raining on the way but dry when we got there. Just before the run started … man oh man … I was already wet up to my underwear. Poor A. and F I felt really bad …

The run started in the heavy rain and the rain last for 2 km (so app. 10 min). I had sticky hair, raining jacket glued in to my skin and swimming pool in my shoes but… the air and the surrounding … super cool. The firs 6 km in the forest, the last 4 between the fields and trees … I was feeling pretty good taking in to consideration that Friday and Saturday was taking “paracetamol” to decrease my fever. I know, I know, it was not that smart at all to go, but I wanted desperately to do it.

The time was not below 1h as my goal few months ago was but still better than I thought. 1:02:53 ... I hope that next time will be better. Waiting still for the photos ...

Where is the time…

Time flies. Yesterday was Monday, I thought, but tomorrow is Friday… where are the days in between… who is crossing out the days from my calendar and my life… I protest, I am not happy that the next weekend has come because it means I am 7 days older…

I did not see A. for three days, waking up at 6 a.m. going to bed at 22 p.m. and he other way around… I feel like the characters from the book I have just finished…. “Solitude of prime numbers” by Paolo Giordano. How real and sad is that story… how painful and depressing but how TRUE… I think that many people leave like this but not everyone realizes that or is afraid to admit, even to themselves… We all have our traumas, secrets and dark side … don’t we?

Amazing…

I am watching “Planet Earth” filmed by BBC. I do not have a beautiful box as below (I will have one day) but I have films borrowed from my colleague. One word “A M A Z I N G”. The voice of David Attenborough make the whole story complete…

Still 4 discs to go…

Autumn is coming...

Dark in the morning, dark in the evening, cold wind, rain and this mood that you want to stay on the sofa, with the blanket, warm chocolate milk and good book or movie.

It will happen more often that I will be melancholic, sad, tired and have a bad humor. Small things will play on my nerves … preparing my hair in the morning to have them fucked up while walking with Fuyo 15 min later, the umbrella that will broke down when I will run for the train, the metro or the train that will be delayed because of rain, frost, wind, snow or other unexpected weather conditions.

… its dark and raining outside, Fuyo must go for her last evening walk and I would just prefer go to bed and start 6 months of autumn/winter sleep…

The sun will be welcome any time...

BAZ on the beach…

The weather is getting bad… you can feel autumn coming with the big steps. Last weekend of August we went to Scheveningen see the bouldering competitions. I could go even earlier to do some climbing but… did not check the website before and have not arranged the special entry ticket. Oh well, next year better.

However, what I wanted to say actually is that it was so freaking cold that even wearing the jacket and the scarf I was freezing. We saw the final of the girls and give the guys up. Running home to warm up our butts!

Gringo, the white face...

I just finished next book, this time about the traveling. Good subject when you sick, lying in bed and not allowed to go outside the house.
Author: Wojciech Cejrowski
Title in English: “Gringo among wild tribes”.

Books like this are very dangerous. Firstly, they are showing what other people are capable of doing (me not) and what they can sacrifice and what price are able to pay (me not) for the dreams. Secondly, the books and the stories like this trigger the part of the brain, that is craving for adventure… and then you (me) want to travel and have adventures as well…

One of the best pieces from the book is about the Indian (Native American) lying in the hammock. My short translation of the story below (be gentle).

“The Indian was lying in the hammock and as every day, was doing nothing. Around him the poverty was growing. The house that he made out of clay, long time ago was crooked and almost collapsing.
-It is still standing – said the Indian – why should I repair it now.
Around him hungry breeding flock was trotting. The pigs were hungry enough and ready to eat the dog-end or the sweet wrapper. They were only walking skin and bones.
-These pigs are very lazy and they cannot find anything to eat – the Indian explained
-Maybe you should give them handful of corn or something – the author said
-Feeding pigs!? – The Indian was outraged – you white people do not have idea about the economy and farming. The pigs are not to be feed by human but other way around - he ended.
Beside the pigs and the falling apart house, he had also two chickens, wife and the bunch of children. The childrenwere nothing left but the big eyes, wanes, bones and skin, no fat at all.
Summarizing, the Indian had house made of clay with the roof out of palm leaves, in the house family and the livestock, the tropical forest around and poverty with the big eyes. Instead of going to work he was the whole day hanging in the hammock.
-Why should I go to work? - he asked with the honest wonderment.
-To buy something to eat for the children!
-It is not worth to try, they are eating and eating but they are always hungry. You cannot fill the children’s stomachs up. They have to grow the hunger out.
-You cannot grow the hunger out!
-Yes you can. I did it. I do not want anything, even food. And they will be fine, they need only time.

But the author was trying further to show his rights.
-But you could grow more pigs, more fat ones and you could sell one and earn some money.
-Why? - Said the Indian – the money will not buy me happiness and are not practical in our surrounding. Everything what I want is growing around me, forest, corn and papaya.
-Shoes do not grow. You have to buy it.
-Why? – Said the Indian – I have never had shoes and I am fine. My children do not like them because they are uncomfortable and creating the blisters.
-But maybe you could buy the radio. Do you like music?
-My neighbor has got one. The one living across the field. He turns the radio full volume and I can hear in my hammock.
-Is there really nothing that you would like to have? Do you have everything what you want?
-Time – Said the Indian
-What do you mean by TIME? You don’t do anything all days but hanging in the hammock.
-Yep, that’s right, but how long can I hang like this, he, tell me?
-What the difference does it make?
-You see “white face” (Gringo), for me the happiest moments are when I lay in my hammock and do nothing! Longer then better. I do not have pain, nothing is urgent, nothing and nobody wait for me, nobody is calling, my stomach does not cry for the food, my wife is not crying for….you know what. My happiness is this peaceful moment that lasts: nobody wants anything from me, I do not have to put any efforts in doing something and I do not have to carry about anything or go anywhere… You, white people, find the happiness in the movement, we Indians in the stillness and immobility. You want to change everything constantly, organize, and improve. We are looking for the state of solace and when we found it, we do not want to move to not spoil the moment.

After this speech he was laying silently for about 15 minutes and said:
-For you Gringo my hammock is full of boredom, for me this is the paradise on earth!”

Unfortunately the book is not translated in to English yet but if you want to get the general idea about the style of the book, read the funny stories about trips to find the last living wild tribes, go to the following link http://www.cejrowski.com/en/stories/

Muffins...

Finally, I made the Muffins with the blueberries from Poland (2liters for 20 PLN). I have used the package with the ready powder, but still they are so yummy… I am planning the next ones with the strawberries and other with the chocolate.

One day I will make the real ones, just from the scratch…

What are we are living for...

family, work, pleasure, fun, success, money, love, house, car, kids, travels, being together or being alone, piece and quiet, friendships, sleep and waking up, water, sand, sun or moon… what if everything is for nothing.

Are you happy that you have something or that you do not have and do not have to worry about… Are you happy that somebody else has something or does not have anything…

“biedroneczko, biedroneczko lec do nieba, przynies mi kawalek chleba”