Being 17 again…

I have not had this feeling since reading “Anne of Green Gables” when I was 12 or 13.
I do not know how to describe this feeling but I just don’t want to stop reading… The funny thing is that what I am reading… is nothing serious or extraordinary.

It is a book or series of four books about teenagers, love, adventure, vampires and a lot of bla bla but it reads so easy. Two weeks ago A. said “do you want to read very simple but nice book? It is a “housewife series” but you are in the story so quickly...” So here I am, 2 weeks later starting the 3 piece… and I want more, more and more.

Recommended for girls, different ages, hopeless romantic that want to jump in to crazy world of vampires and dream about Edward… afrerwards ;)

Two of the books have been already filmed “Twilight” and “New moon”, not seen yet but will, definitely ;)

1,2,3,4...

I was just thinking … is the age so important. Most of the time guys have a younger girlfriend, wife, partner but if the girl likes younger guy… well… it’s seems like the “forbidden fruit”.

Why girls care so much? What makes us so insecure?

> How old are you actually, do you know that I am 37? Are you 29?
> No
> Really, are you 30? You do not look 30
> No, I am 23.
> Jesus, I have T-shirts older than you are.

“Prime” film with Uma Thurman.

Uncertain times…

Finally the bomb landed very close by, in our department, one position has been cancelled and my colleague free to go home. This was not the first person in the head quarter but the closest. How this is possible that in few days the work that you do become unimportant or can be done by somebody else…

You build something, relations, ideas, way to run the day to day business, you plan, long time projects, short time projects, have to do list and priority list. You have your calendar, meetings planned, files, more or less organized, you have your day planned from morning to the end and suddenly all what was so normal and obvious is gone… suddenly you do not have to go anywhere and the “urgent” messages are not so urgent anymore…

In one moment the world is different, point of view and the position changes…you need to adjust and reorganize your life…

I always said that I can adapt to the changes, I am flexible and open minded but in situations like this I am so emotional, I have to much feeling pushing to my body, head and eventually come through my eyes. It does not have to be bad end but it might be very good beginning…

Cold and dark…

A lot of people are having a winter depression already even though the fall just started… I have days that I would just stay at home and will not put my nose outside the door. Last week for the first time I have started the heating … not much … 2 degrees up. I could feel the warmth filling the room slowly … lekker. Today also, just stay at home a watch TV and sleep after the busy weekend…but Fuyo need to go to the course so … preparing the snacks, the toy, and the doggy bags … an leaving in the cold and dark evening…

District 9

I have not decided yet if I did or did not like this movie. I watched the film to the end because this is what I do almost all the time, watch to the end. I wanted to see how the situation develops and how it will end.

The film was shot as a documentary, different angle, different comers, refreshing but the story… not for people who does not like science-fiction. Yes, the movie it is about the “green men” or “aliens” that has been rescued from the spaceship in South Africa and placed in the district 9.

The movie shows the few sides of the people and what are they capable to do when left without choice. Brutality, hate, fear, love and desperation… at the end of the movie I though “well, how many districts 9 we have already”

Hoge Veluwe loop -10K

Mid October I have not expected the weather to be good but at least no rain or small drizzle. What we got on the way and in the Hoge Veluwe Park when the run took place, was wall of rain (A. and F went with me). Taught by the experience of last year and my previous 10K run, I left on time (thanks to A.) and took enough food and drink.
It was raining when we left home, raining on the way but dry when we got there. Just before the run started … man oh man … I was already wet up to my underwear. Poor A. and F I felt really bad …

The run started in the heavy rain and the rain last for 2 km (so app. 10 min). I had sticky hair, raining jacket glued in to my skin and swimming pool in my shoes but… the air and the surrounding … super cool. The firs 6 km in the forest, the last 4 between the fields and trees … I was feeling pretty good taking in to consideration that Friday and Saturday was taking “paracetamol” to decrease my fever. I know, I know, it was not that smart at all to go, but I wanted desperately to do it.

The time was not below 1h as my goal few months ago was but still better than I thought. 1:02:53 ... I hope that next time will be better. Waiting still for the photos ...

Where is the time…

Time flies. Yesterday was Monday, I thought, but tomorrow is Friday… where are the days in between… who is crossing out the days from my calendar and my life… I protest, I am not happy that the next weekend has come because it means I am 7 days older…

I did not see A. for three days, waking up at 6 a.m. going to bed at 22 p.m. and he other way around… I feel like the characters from the book I have just finished…. “Solitude of prime numbers” by Paolo Giordano. How real and sad is that story… how painful and depressing but how TRUE… I think that many people leave like this but not everyone realizes that or is afraid to admit, even to themselves… We all have our traumas, secrets and dark side … don’t we?

Amazing…

I am watching “Planet Earth” filmed by BBC. I do not have a beautiful box as below (I will have one day) but I have films borrowed from my colleague. One word “A M A Z I N G”. The voice of David Attenborough make the whole story complete…

Still 4 discs to go…

Autumn is coming...

Dark in the morning, dark in the evening, cold wind, rain and this mood that you want to stay on the sofa, with the blanket, warm chocolate milk and good book or movie.

It will happen more often that I will be melancholic, sad, tired and have a bad humor. Small things will play on my nerves … preparing my hair in the morning to have them fucked up while walking with Fuyo 15 min later, the umbrella that will broke down when I will run for the train, the metro or the train that will be delayed because of rain, frost, wind, snow or other unexpected weather conditions.

… its dark and raining outside, Fuyo must go for her last evening walk and I would just prefer go to bed and start 6 months of autumn/winter sleep…

The sun will be welcome any time...

BAZ on the beach…

The weather is getting bad… you can feel autumn coming with the big steps. Last weekend of August we went to Scheveningen see the bouldering competitions. I could go even earlier to do some climbing but… did not check the website before and have not arranged the special entry ticket. Oh well, next year better.

However, what I wanted to say actually is that it was so freaking cold that even wearing the jacket and the scarf I was freezing. We saw the final of the girls and give the guys up. Running home to warm up our butts!